09 September 2009

What Do I Wish To Learn?

The ever-evocative Jamie Ridler asks today, "What do you wish to learn?" Without even stopping to think about it, I knew at once what I wish to learn. I wish to learn to be comfortable in my creativity. To learn to trust myself, artistically and personally, to express the whole of who I am. Creativity is such a big damn deal for me, and I wish to learn to make it a more natural process, more holistic.

Don't get me wrong: I don't ever want to lose the thrill of creativity, or the ability to get utterly lost in my process. Quite the contrary! I want to learn to step out my own way, so that those two things can happen more readily. I'm not asking that creativity or expression become "all in a days work", but rather that it become a more playful, more natural, activity.

That's it! I want to learn to play again, both in my art and in my life. I'm way too serious and intense for my own good sometimes! I enjoy my artistic process most of the time, but it feels as though I work too hard at it. I get so hung up about wanting everything I work on to be good enough, that sometimes it's hard to even make a decision as to what to do next. That's why I like taking classes and working through tutorials -- I'm told what to do next.

But it's time that I really integrated all the techniques and tips that I've learned through classes and tutorials and made them a part of my own personal repertoire. It's time I learned to express my own artistic vision.

14 comments:

Deldino said...

as cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
May you always find time for play in your life.

Lisa K said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I, Lisa, wish for her as well.

when I find myself too serious at my art...I go buy a kid's coloring book and a new set of crayons...make myself a glass of chocolate milk...sit down...and color.

LokiManx said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, so too do I wish for her!
Ash

KnittingJourneyman said...

As Cindy wishes for herself I so whole-heartedly wish for her as well!

Stefanie said...

What a beautiful wish. May I borrow it?

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I sincerely wish for her also.

Wishing you nothing but goodness.

Girlie-Queue said...

I think some one said this of mine today... I will now say it of yours "I could have wished that!" LOL - especially the "Get out of my own way" part...wowzers. YES!

Well, here's too it - As Cindy wishes for herself, so too do I wish for Cindy :)
~Shamsi♥

Dreamwriter said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Oh yes! Play! Dig your fingers in paint!

Ellecubed said...

Beautiful wish. As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Kathy said...

Count me in too - I could have very well wished this same thing.

Here's to playing!

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

LeslieB said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Delightful wishes!

Giulietta said...

Hi Cindy,

I tried to submit a post yesterday but it didn't go through. Am back for a second try! So glad you honed in for play. Why are adults encouraged to leave this important activity when we are "promoted" to adulthood? It's such a lost art. I wish for you to learn to play again and express your own vision. You have everything you need to be an artist in your own right.

Good luck!

Giulietta

Carmen said...

As Cindy wishes for herself so I Carmen wish for her also.

I saw all the yummy art supplies you just got, time to play ;-)

p.s. i am so checking those web suppliers right now.
soul hugs!
p.s. #2 i am taking Julia Prichard part 2 super nova

Jamie Ridler said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

What a delicious aha moment!

differenceayearmakes said...

As Cindy wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

I'm getting around late - ooooh, art supplies!